A Tornado CAN Sow Seeds

The past month has been a whirlwind of decisions, planning, and stress. It all started in early March I was running around outside in the gorgeous Idaho sun and I felt a sudden pain to have to leave in a few months. I went to a quiet place and just sat and pondered and the thought came to me "I can stay" I shot up out of my position and said, "I CAN stay!" from there much prayer and thought went into what I would have to do to stay. I told one of my roommates what I was thinking, and she was going to drive back home with me. She had to book a flight, a bus ticket, and pack up all of her stuff in storage. I felt bad for not letting her know sooner, but I had just received an epiphany about something that I was not expecting. I spent the next few days confirming to myself that this decision was not a whim, but something divinely appointed. I ended up telling my family I would not be home for the summer, and much to my surprise they were understanding.
The next week I turned in applications, resumes, and asking everyone if they knew of any jobs. I put in my resume into one restaurant and they called back for an interview and I ended up getting the job. I said yes to it right away because I was scared I would not receive another call from any other place I had applied for. I started training there and later on that week I had received a call from another place to work for an interview, one I really wanted. I called back and set up an interview. I went to the interview and the job I really wanted hired me. I know that this job will give me experience, training, and guidance in my field of study. I am excited for it, but nervous!!! I quite my other jobs that I had, one I have had for 10 months and the other one I had for 1 day. I know that this is the right thing, but I can't help from feeling scared. I am scared because I know that this new job I want is going to build my resume and help me become a "grownup"
I have seen that through storms come great things. I am curious to see what comes from this disaster of a mess in my life, but I know through faith I will see blessings.